ममता का साया

कुछ परिस्थितिया  सामने ऐसे  आयी 
की  मानो  लेहरो  सा  उछल  के  तूफान  सा  नीचे  पटक  गिरा  हूँ
न  पैरो  तले ये  ज़मीन  बची 
न  छत  पर  अस्मा
बस  डर के  सेहम  सा  गया  हो ||

कुछ  पता  ना  चला , क्या  हो  गया  एक  दम  से  ज़िन्दगी  में 
आँख  खोल  के , बन  कर  के  बस  अँधेरा  ही  अँधेरा  नज़र  आ  रहा  था
कोशिश  थी  खुद  को  संभालने  की  मगर  खुद  को  ही  बिगड़  रहा  था
कुछ  ऐसा  असर  था  इस  तूफान  का  की  कुछ  समज  ही  नही  आ  रहा  था ||

फिर  धीरे  से  सर  पर  किसने  हाथ  सा  फैरा 
जिसने   चलना  सिखाया  था  आज  उसने  फिर  उठना  सिख्या 
जितना  अकेला  था  में  उस  दौर  में  मेरी  माँ  ने  फिर  मुझे  5  साल  के  बच्चे   की   तरह  सब  कुछ  सिख्या , उत्साह  बढ़ाया
कितना  अकेले  सा  हो  गया  था  मै  मगर  उसके  साये  ने  मुझे  सहरा  दिलाया
जहाँ  लोगो  ने  मुझे  मुझसे  ही  प्यार  करना  भुला  दिया  था 
वहाँ  माँ  ने  मेरी  सिसकियों  को  सीने  से  लगा  के  चुप  करया ||

कहने  को  है  बहुत  से  रोग  मेरी  माँ  को
पर  देख  के   लगता   है  बस  उसको  मेरी  ही  चिंता  है
भगवन  ने  ना   जाने  क्या  सोच  कर  माँ  को  बनाया
माँ  ने  अपनी दुनिया  छोड़  के बस  अपना  जीवन  अपनी  बचे  के  इर्द  गिर्द  घुमाया
ना   जाने  क्या  सोच  के  भगवन  माँ  को  बनाया  ||

आँखों की गुफ्तगू

कुछ कशिश है तेरी इन आँखों में, जब देखो तो बहुत कुछ बया करती है

बिन कहे ही उधर का सब हाल समझा देती है

जब नटखट काम करते हो तो, तो शरारत भरी रहती है इन आँखों में

जब प्यार करते हो तो, सच्चाई दिखाई देती है

जब रुठते हो तो एक दर्द छुपा रहता है

जब भिवष्य का सोचते हो तो चमक आ जाती है

जब दिल दुखता है तो पानी बाहर आ जाता है

जब मुस्कुराते हो तो छोटी सी हो जाती है

और जब मेरे साथ होते हो तो गहराई और एक सचाई दिखती  है

दिन रात तेरी आखे वो बोलती है जो जुबा न बोल पाती

कद्र है मुझे तेरे हर एक अहसास की, तेरे आज की और हमारे सुनहरे कल की ||

Unseen Feelings Part1

Hi this story revolves about 4 people character

Hina (Elder sister of Vikas)- very hardworking, serious in life, girl who rarely smile, Under the burden of useless responsibility. In short boring.

Vikas- 3yr younger than her sister(hina) stay with her in 2bhk- Boy who is crazy, who don’t know the meaning of responsibility. Fun is the only meaning of his life. Who don’t value money, friends is life for him. Opposite of Hina. He makes fun of her own sister.

Shilpa(twin sister of Akash)- crazy idiot girl from very strict background.

Akash. Twin in crazy thing as well he is crazy, don’t care attitude like her sister.

Shilpa and Akash shifted 2 Mumbai for study, first time they got opportunity to stay away from family as till now they were living with strict parents only. Their father is strict as well as miser so don’t give money to them and keep track of all their expenses. They are staying in 1Bhk flat on rent and they are making fool of their father by asking rent of 2bhk. So they are using rest of money for fun. Both twins are best friends of each other.

Hina is always busy in earning and taking care of everything for her and for Vikas. She always scold Vikas for not valuing anything- neither time, money nor her as well. She is pissed of Vikas's careless attitude. Vikas is moved to 2^nd year of college so he thinks now he is cool and he can do anything now in college as he is senior.

One day in college cafeteria Vikas met Akash and both immediately turned to friends. Both Vikas and Akash are alike each other- crazy, idiot, full of life with no responsibility.

Next day Shilpa met Vikas and joined their group. The trio is formed, trio of crazy people. It’s like trio of 3 people who enjoy each others company and don’t gave a damn to rest of the world, who bunks, spend pocket money in partying, roaming, movies and all.   

Now Shilpa and Akash start visiting Vikas's flat and they got to know Hina also. These 3makes full fun of Hina when they are together regardless of the fact that she is Vikas's sister, Vikas also enjoy this.

For all the enjoyment major money is contributed from Vikas’s side, which he takes from her sister as pocket money. The money need is kept raising as the trio need more and more money for fun. Shilpa and Akash don’t contribute much as their father take complete note of all the money provided and spent.

Hina is getting irritated from this trio. And one day while arguing with Vikas she slapped him and asked him to go out and never come back.

Vikas in the midnight came to Shilpa and Akash's place. They stay in 1bhk only so all slept on floor, but this Vikas and Hina's issue is impacting trio masti. They start thinking the idea how Vikas can go back and start getting pocket money again. After trying multiple sorry letters, phone call one day Shilpa decided to talk about this to Hina face to face and will try to convince her. After their meeting Shilpa understood Hina hates her like anything. And the trio again start thinking about other ideas.

The only option they have now is Akash, they thought now Akash will go and talk to Hina and try to make peace in between them. When he came back after meeting with her, he was not able to convince her but the trio realised that Hina don’t hate him at least. So they can ask him to go again. Trio understood Akash is the only option they have, now they want him to be friend with Hina. So Akash start meeting Hina regulatory to convince her for Vikas and forgive him, but Hina start convincing Akash that Vikas is doing wrong and not understanding her own sister. 

Slowly Akash started understanding the fact what Hina is saying is correct and he try to start convincing Vikas and Shilpa that we are wrong but Vikas and Shilpa deny to understand the fact what Akash is trying.

Other hand Akash started part time Job in Hina's office only so he start spending less time time with trio and more time with Hina. Hina and Akash became good friends.

After few months Akash decided to shift at Hina's place as 1bhk is not enough for 3 people and office is also very far from his place.

Vikas and Shilpa got mad on Hina and Akash for not understanding them. But after some time they realised that their college is getting over and their siblings are not supporting them as well. So they started taking things seriously and used their crazy minds in earning.

 On the other hand Hina and Akash are into Love relationship. Vikas and Shilpa also realised crazy Akash has become bit serious for his love and responsibilities and Boring Hina has become more cool and relax. But they are hardly bother about them.

Shilpa and Vikas started making videos and started uploading on Soical media as this is the only work they can do without investing money. With in a short time their videos became viral all over and people start liking their videos. This way they start earning and gain some attention also. Now they don't need to ask for money to anyone. 

But still their families are not aware about whats going on in Mumbai and in their children's Life. Neither Vikas and Shilpa know about their relationship with each other is that is just a business Partnership or something else is growing between them.

Imperfection Becomes Perfection

World looks perfect to me and that vision provided by Mom, But things never remain the same as truth differs time to time. Now it looks I am not that perfect to this perfect world. I can’t study, communicate in the same as way others doing. People feels uneasy when I am around, they just give a sympathy look to me. Yes everyone say I am dumb and deaf which is so true but still I can communicate with people who really want to do so, like my family do. Yes my mode is not normal but that’s not my fault God has born me like this. Thanks to my family business I don’t need to bother much about people. I am the youngest qualified CA in the country and I feel happy and satisfied in my life. For some fun in my life I play basketball but unfortunately boys don’t allow me to play with them. Thanks to my Rich and famous Dad I can daily play basketball in the evening but not with other boys just alone- I shot, I dribble and I enjoy.

Today day while I taking rest from game  I saw a girl standing outside the mosque in a plan white salwar and kurta, dupata rounded around his head. She is as white as Tajmahal marble, so clean and clear from head to toe, her long black plate is giving complement to her white attire, her wide beautiful eyes looks like a rose petal, she looks so delicate as soft as cotton she is calm composed like a sea depth. I have never seen such a beautiful girl. Just seeing her I feel so refreshed, she is so serious looking down like someone is stopping her to get noticed. Just seeing her gave me immense sense of relief. I started noticing her daily in evening as she comes to mosque with plate full of food and then she wait for 5min then she return back with empty plate. I get her routine now so eagerly wait for her at 5:30pm to see her. 

After few days I realized that she noticed that I am keeping eyes on her so very next day while I was waiting her I didn’t see her rather I see a boy was bringing food to mosque. And then she stopped coming for few day again she came after couple of days. Today she looks like she was bathing in butter from last couple of day so graceful like a moon in the dark. I was waiting for her but when she came I passed smile to her and due to her nervousness her plate fall down and she ran with an aggression on her face. I felt disgusting, pathetic for myself now. I want to say her sorry, first time I feel so helpless with my inability to communicate. After few days she came again but this time I didn’t give chance to her feel nervous I just saw her glimpse from the bushes while playing and doing so give me extreme happiness.  I was doing this daily now but after few days neither she came nor her brother. After certain time I realized that they were coming to mosque as Ramzan was going and now the month is over. I badly want to ask her name, say sorry !! tell her how beautiful she is, tell her if she wears the smile she will shine like a diamond.

But still I am not heartbroken still hopes are high .I waited for another 3months for ramdan again. Now I have full one month to step ahead and to know her more. So I pen down all my thoughts mentioning how beautiful she is, how sorry I am, how serious she is, how helpless I am and I want to know her from birth till today and want to confess my pure feelings for her. Now my letter is ready so I have reached outside the mosque at sharp 4:00pm as I don’t want to miss any chance. I stayed there upto 9:00pm no one came neither she nor her brother. I followed this routine for next 30days but unfortunately this time no one came.

The hopes are still on will wait till I meet her and handover my letter to her. One year passed another ramzan month arrived I waited for her with the letter few days passed but didn’t see her but after 11day I see her with the plate ful of food in hand. I saw her I waved her with a big smile and then she came to me and so many things which I didn’t understand exactly except the fact she is scolding me badly. 

While she was leaving I gave her my letter and left from there. In the letter I have mentioned that I am dumb and deaf and shared my number as well. Whole night I was waiting for her message. But didn’t hear back anything from her side. Next day again I reached outside the mosque but I saw she was standing on the other side so I waved her and was crossing the road meanwhile truck hit me badly and I don’t remember what happened next. I found myself on the bed in my bedroom with fractured leg and some stitches on forehead. I was just cursing why it did happen in this month. I spend my whole day now at home in missing her, office work and rest  that’s it. After a week I got a message from unkown number and when I opened that I start reading it – “Hi Ram, Sheema Iqbal this side, same girl to whom you had handover the letter last week outside Mosque. When I read your letter I just thought you were lying that you are dumb and deaf just to gain my attention but very next day when truck hit you I realized you were true. I cant answer your all questions all I can tell is –

 I live near MG road.

 I never heard so much appreciation about my beauty from anyone thankyou.

 I am widow and mother of 2month boy.

 If anyone in my family know about this they will kill me so don’t try to follow me.

Hope you will recover soon.”

I read this text thousands of time and I feel more positive now. I told everything to my mom. She was surprised after hearing this. But after seeing my love for her, she decided to investigate about her more. From her sources my Mom got all the information regarding to her. So one day Mom decided to visit her home so she went there. Earlier they were discussing casual thing but my mom told her that I am Ram’s mother after hearing this it was like ground slipped under her feet. Sheema got scared my mom told her don’t think much if you feel you can spend your whole life with Ram then tell me. I’ll manage everything from my family to your family. Sheema looks confused puzzled. My mom shared her no with her and left.

Sheema texted me scolded me for doing such things.  I told her I love her and want to spend my life with her. I asked her to meet once after lot of insisting she was convinced. She daily goes to park with her son in morning so I joined her there. When I look at her from so close I just want to feel her in my arms but could not. For that one hour we just waved each other, asked how is she(in gestures) and I played with her son only. Her son was exactly like her. Few days after mom came to me with sweets and she was very happy after asking her the reasons she told me that Sheema texted her that she is ok in marrying me. It was unbelievable for me don’t to what made her to decide that.

Now we have biggest hurdle in front of us “to agree everyone in my family and in her family for this marriage”. My  mom disclosed this to my dad, my dad got hyper totally disagree. He was not ready to listen anything about this.  So I decided to go on hunger strike after not eating anything for 3days my health impacted as I was not taking medicines as well. After seeing all this drama my father agreed and he made others in our family to agree on this.

Now the difficult part came, we have to make their family ready as well. My dad and mom visited their house and told them that they like Sheema and interested in marrying her with their son. Just after hearing this, her father got furious just because of my father’s reputation they didn’t say much but asked my parents to leave and forget about this. My dad was just like a pillar to me he applied all possible ways to make thing ok. He traded with her father and gifted him a car with some money as well and makes them ready. So after 8months battle finally the day has arrived when we are getting married. In this 8months Sheema has learnt the sign language as well so now we can communicate in a very well way. This 8months has developed our love more passionately.  On my marriage day I decided that I’ll never have any child of my own. So that Sheema’s will get undivided and unbiased attention from everyone.

After 15years

Today I feel so happy and satisfied my son don’t feel ashamed of my inability (dumb and deaf) he just feel so proud of me. I am the super hero for him. Sheema is best thing happen to me. Now She is the writer of many books. In one book she had mentioned the reason why she said yes to me in one hour meeting and the reason was “In that one hour I can see the father of my child in Ram. How he understood every single thing that my 3months son was conveying which only mother understands. Then only I got to know that he has some special gift though which he can understand everything and he will understand every single thing that I or my son expects or want in our life. I don’t think I will ever get such understanding husband, now my son will have the love of two Mother(Me & Ram) and one Father(Ram) Happy family” 

Dil Se Dil Tak

This Story is about Love Friendship and its impact and effect in Life.

Main Character- Manisha, Pranjali, Keshav, Anurag

Manisha- Average looking, sincere, bit loud, hard working and very competitive girl.

Pranjali- Average looking bit better than Manisha, sweet, calm, innocent.

Story start with Manisha the topper of the class, she excels in everything Studies, Sports, extra curriculum activities.

In class 9, new girl joined the class name as Pranjali as soon as she joined the school she became friend with Manisha. Within few days both become best friends. Sits together, hangout together, eat together and do fun together.

Due to Manisha’s competitive nature, when teachers appreciate Pranjali she started working harder and harder. But everything is going great between them.

In class 11, Manisha took History as one of the optional subject and Pranjali took computer and rest all subjects are same.

Computer class always held late in evening due to which Manisha and Pranjali don’t go home together now. Pranjali made new more friends of computer classes. There is a guy in Computer class who starts liking Pranjali and both become friends. That guy starts being friend with Manisha also, as Manisha and Pranjali are best friend. So, he started growing his friendship with both.  So time was passing Pranjali and Keshav start preparing for computers together due to which they start spending more time together and become more good friends.

And with little time frame Keshav and Pranjali romance started, Keshav proposed her and Pranjali said Yes, But they didn’t shared this news with Manisha yet. So after few days they decided to disclose their romance to Manisha.

But after meeting Manisha they found Manisha’s health is not fine and they prefer to disclose this later.

Then school completed Pranjali and Manisha took admission in different colleges getting lesser time with each other. Especially Pranjali is more focused in studies and with Keshav.

Other side Manisha’s health is degrading day by day, but she was ignoring only.  Her Mom got ill and she took the last breath. After that Manisha start feeling more alone Keshav try to talk to her, gave her some more time as she was alone and depressed.

After few days…

 Someone told Manisha about Pranjali and Keshav’s love relationship and she was broken. Then she called Pranjali to confirm, she said yes and told her we wanted to tell you but your health was not fine. Manisha got angry. Then she called Keshav to confirm the same and he said the same. She was disturbed and shattered. Next day when Keshav called to Manisha, she said you can’t this to me, you love me not Pranjali he was shocked after hearing this. He tried to clarify this but she was not ready to listen. Manisha called Pranjali abused her, scold her that she is coming in between our friendship and in my Love Life. Pranjali and Keshav were surprised after knowing that Manisha Love Keshav.

Again she called Keshav and bagged her to leave Pranjali and Love her, he tried to explain her but she was continuously saying bad thing about Pranjali than he cut down the phone, she was texting Keshav and Pranjali continuously, but after lot of drama Pranjali and Keshav decided to change their phone numbers and block her from every possible way.

Manisha’s health is highly impacted and she was in total depression. Her father helped her but nothing is working for her. Then one day she decided to move out from the city for job and she left the place and starts living alone and tries to keep her busy in office. But nothing is working for her.

 In her office she met a guy named Anurag, he is from her school only, he was amused after seeing Manisha, so thin, dull, weak, and not confident. He asked what is wrong, she told her the entire situation. He was puzzled is she is the same Manisha who was inspiration to so many, now taking so many pill day and night, so negative attitude, this is unbelievable for him, he tried to convince her to move on but nothing is working for her. So as genuine classmate from school, he first started her helping in work but Manisha could not handle this so she decided to leave the job and live in the same city alone. But as genuine friend Anurag remain in touch with her and motivate her, help her to come out from depression.

One day he asked Manisha to join one event organized by “Speaking Group” where speakers get chance to speak on any topic, as Manisha was a great speaker during her school time. But Manisha denied as it was long back and now she lost the confidence as well. But with few day practices with Anurag, she agreed to join him for event.

Now the event day arrived, after few speakers turn, Manisha’s turn came, she started but with in a second she got blank, unable to utter a word and fainted. This event impacted her health highly and her depression level got increased.

After few months…

This time Anurag with more careful approached reach to Manisha’s place and asked her to accompany him to village as he is going home for holidays for some environment change. But as usual she denied him. After lots and lots of request she agreed to accompany him to his hometown visit. After few days in village Anurag’s father asked Anurag to meet the kids who study in his Father’s school. Anurag and Manisha visited his father school and all went good.

Anurag noticed that after very long time she is actually happy with kids. So in the evening he asked Manisha –“Could you please accompany me in helping school children?” Manisha- What help this kids needs from you?

Anurag- They wants me to teach them and spend some good time with them till I am here.

Manisha- Ok

Anurag- So could you also accompany me in doing that.

Manisha- Yeah sure no problem

Next day they both reached school taught children few things, played with them. This routine started and Manisha was enjoying all this.  So Anurag asked Manisha that school has some upcoming competition with different school, Could she help girls for debate and extempore so that their school win. Manisha agreed and start helping girls in English Hindi Debate, extempore and all speaking competitions. Everything was going good and their school won the trophy also and in the end of competition she gave motivational speech to all kids.

After all this Anurag and Manisha back to their work place. Anurag found Manisha is better now, bit more confident and happy. So he decided to take her to the same place “Speaking Group” where they went last time for Speech.  Manisha was surprised after seeing the same place and scold Anurag for bringing her there again. But he forced and remind her how well she spoke in village she can do the same here now. And Manisha’s speaking turn came, she stammers in the starting but Anurag motivate her from the audience and she got some confidence and then started and it went well. On Anurag insisting she became the member of that group and she start participating regularly.

After few months-

Manisha don’t need medicine now, she is happy, enjoying and became very good Orator. She decided to participate in international Oratorship program. She is enjoying speaking now and start interacting with people. And she excelled in that Oratorship Program and she is recognized as highly influential speaker of the Year & Best Motivation Speaker.

After Few months-

Anurag asked Manisha for Marriage and she said Yes …All started their Marriage Preparation, everyone is very Happy.

On Big Wedding Day-

Anurag saw Pranjali in the corner he went to her, hugged her, wiped her Tear and asked “Are you Happy Now”. She said “Yes!! Thankyou for everything… Please keep her happy Lifetime.. She deserves this Happiness… Bye…” and she left.

Anurag to himself- I’ll keep her happy always, as you will only be happy then. Pranjali you never realized how badly I loved you(crying)

Pranjali to herself- Manisha I really loved you, you are my Best Friend and always remains. I was young, Madly in love so I ditched you, hurt you and now my Karma is in front of me. Keshav Dumped me because of his family disagreement and when I again fall in Love with Anurag, I realized again we both have fallen for same man, so this time history will not repeat. I really love you Anurag but sorry I can’t tell you that. Please be Happy with Manisha(crying)

The end…..

मृगतृष्णा सा तुम्हारा साथ

आ गये थे हम इस नयी दुनिया मे कुछ अरमान ले कर

पता ना था ये गलिया पहुचागी ह्मेकिस घर     ||

चले जा रहे थे अकेले इस भीड़  मे आगे बड़ कर

कुछ देर मे देखा रगिस्तान ही है चारो एकड़      ||

फिर चल पड़े मुसाफिर की तरह पानी की तालश मे हो कर बेफिकर

दूर से मृगतृष्णा का अहसास हुआ तुम्हे देखकर

पास गये थे प्यास भुज गई वो प्यारी सी मुस्कान देखकर ||

अब हम दोनो देखते है इस दुनिया को  कुछ अलग ही मोड़ पर

मगर ह्मे पता ना था ये रगिस्तान के ख़तम होते मृगतृष्णा भी चली जयगी ह्मे अकेला छोड़ कर

ओर फिर हम मुसाफिर बन गये किसी नई दुनिए की ओर अकेले होकर||

Mr. COOL

It was just quietness, silence and many questions in mind and heart as well when I saw you again after 3years. You are still the same cool with a descent smile on face and….with lots and lot of question in your eyes. I was not able to see you, face you and I never wanted to face this I never wanted to meet you in my life that’s what I wished from our destiny. And only one question on your lips WHY?

I don’t know why but I just know that was most difficult question of my life and with my situation and with my situation handling technique leaving you in that situation was the correct and best decision as by me. And after taking that decision just sticking to it was other second most difficult and hardest part of my life.

You were not just a friend of my life you were the soul of me. I think destiny played with me in the most beautiful manner first it blessed with the most beautiful family of me and with your family friendship. I was blessed to born and brought up a part of two families and both shower Love, care, protection and a never disappearing smile on my face. I was always in love with all of us. And I was fortunate to have you as a part of this. We are friends since we born, we shared our childhood from silly mistake to mature decision. You were the soul of my life but time has some other plans for us.

After reaching at an age to understand that my increasing feeling for you was just increasing exponentially by each passing day. And feeling to live and spend my life with you was just I wanted. The way you make me the heroine of our gang, gave importance of every little thing of my life, spending uncountable to night in just chatting. All my dreams, liking, happiness was not mine only Its you’re too. Don’t know how you don’t have anything your favorite. Trust to spend anytime and anywhere with you.

You taught me how to make someone to feel special. But we make every growing feeling between us as a part of our family bonding and our Friendship from infant to grownups.  But after the crack in the families bond, my feeling for you was uncontrollably increased and I realized that living apart from you was not possible for me and was difficult to me that your family love, support, protection for me was somewhere is obstructed. I was so lost to gain a pace in this all situation and then after 1week sleepless night I made a strong decision to live apart from you just live alone, so I left the place, changed the number blocked all the friends and without giving you the final words and hug.

I left everything in the mid and I left all alone. And it took one year to be normal ok for me without you and now after 3 years you again appeared to me. I don’t know what to say I am dumbstruck.