Sunday, 26 August 2018

Imperfection Becomes Perfection


World looks perfect to me and that vision provided by Mom, But things never remain the same as truth differs time to time. Now it looks I am not that perfect to this perfect world. I can’t study, communicate in the same as way others doing. People feels uneasy when I am around, they just give a sympathy look to me. Yes everyone say I am dumb and deaf which is so true but still I can communicate with people who really want to do so, like my family do. Yes my mode is not normal but that’s not my fault God has born me like this. Thanks to my family business I don’t need to bother much about people. I am the youngest qualified CA in the country and I feel happy and satisfied in my life. For some fun in my life I play basketball but unfortunately boys don’t allow me to play with them. Thanks to my Rich and famous Dad I can daily play basketball in the evening but not with other boys just alone- I shot, I dribble and I enjoy.

Today day while I taking rest from game  I saw a girl standing outside the mosque in a plan white salwar and kurta, dupata rounded around his head. She is as white as Tajmahal marble, so clean and clear from head to toe, her long black plate is giving complement to her white attire, her wide beautiful eyes looks like a rose petal, she looks so delicate as soft as cotton she is calm composed like a sea depth. I have never seen such a beautiful girl. Just seeing her I feel so refreshed, she is so serious looking down like someone is stopping her to get noticed. Just seeing her gave me immense sense of relief. I started noticing her daily in evening as she comes to mosque with plate full of food and then she wait for 5min then she return back with empty plate. I get her routine now so eagerly wait for her at 5:30pm to see her. 

After few days I realized that she noticed that I am keeping eyes on her so very next day while I was waiting her I didn’t see her rather I see a boy was bringing food to mosque. And then she stopped coming for few day again she came after couple of days. Today she looks like she was bathing in butter from last couple of day so graceful like a moon in the dark. I was waiting for her but when she came I passed smile to her and due to her nervousness her plate fall down and she ran with an aggression on her face. I felt disgusting, pathetic for myself now. I want to say her sorry, first time I feel so helpless with my inability to communicate. After few days she came again but this time I didn’t give chance to her feel nervous I just saw her glimpse from the bushes while playing and doing so give me extreme happiness.  I was doing this daily now but after few days neither she came nor her brother. After certain time I realized that they were coming to mosque as Ramzan was going and now the month is over. I badly want to ask her name, say sorry !! tell her how beautiful she is, tell her if she wears the smile she will shine like a diamond.

But still I am not heartbroken still hopes are high .I waited for another 3months for ramdan again. Now I have full one month to step ahead and to know her more. So I pen down all my thoughts mentioning how beautiful she is, how sorry I am, how serious she is, how helpless I am and I want to know her from birth till today and want to confess my pure feelings for her. Now my letter is ready so I have reached outside the mosque at sharp 4:00pm as I don’t want to miss any chance. I stayed there upto 9:00pm no one came neither she nor her brother. I followed this routine for next 30days but unfortunately this time no one came.

The hopes are still on will wait till I meet her and handover my letter to her. One year passed another ramzan month arrived I waited for her with the letter few days passed but didn’t see her but after 11day I see her with the plate ful of food in hand. I saw her I waved her with a big smile and then she came to me and so many things which I didn’t understand exactly except the fact she is scolding me badly. 
While she was leaving I gave her my letter and left from there. In the letter I have mentioned that I am dumb and deaf and shared my number as well. Whole night I was waiting for her message. But didn’t hear back anything from her side. Next day again I reached outside the mosque but I saw she was standing on the other side so I waved her and was crossing the road meanwhile truck hit me badly and I don’t remember what happened next. I found myself on the bed in my bedroom with fractured leg and some stitches on forehead. I was just cursing why it did happen in this month. I spend my whole day now at home in missing her, office work and rest  that’s it. After a week I got a message from unkown number and when I opened that I start reading it – “Hi Ram, Sheema Iqbal this side, same girl to whom you had handover the letter last week outside Mosque. When I read your letter I just thought you were lying that you are dumb and deaf just to gain my attention but very next day when truck hit you I realized you were true. I cant answer your all questions all I can tell is –
 I live near MG road.
 I never heard so much appreciation about my beauty from anyone thankyou.
 I am widow and mother of 2month boy.
 If anyone in my family know about this they will kill me so don’t try to follow me.
Hope you will recover soon.”

I read this text thousands of time and I feel more positive now. I told everything to my mom. She was surprised after hearing this. But after seeing my love for her, she decided to investigate about her more. From her sources my Mom got all the information regarding to her. So one day Mom decided to visit her home so she went there. Earlier they were discussing casual thing but my mom told her that I am Ram’s mother after hearing this it was like ground slipped under her feet. Sheema got scared my mom told her don’t think much if you feel you can spend your whole life with Ram then tell me. I’ll manage everything from my family to your family. Sheema looks confused puzzled. My mom shared her no with her and left.

Sheema texted me scolded me for doing such things.  I told her I love her and want to spend my life with her. I asked her to meet once after lot of insisting she was convinced. She daily goes to park with her son in morning so I joined her there. When I look at her from so close I just want to feel her in my arms but could not. For that one hour we just waved each other, asked how is she(in gestures) and I played with her son only. Her son was exactly like her. Few days after mom came to me with sweets and she was very happy after asking her the reasons she told me that Sheema texted her that she is ok in marrying me. It was unbelievable for me don’t to what made her to decide that.
Now we have biggest hurdle in front of us “to agree everyone in my family and in her family for this marriage”. My  mom disclosed this to my dad, my dad got hyper totally disagree. He was not ready to listen anything about this.  So I decided to go on hunger strike after not eating anything for 3days my health impacted as I was not taking medicines as well. After seeing all this drama my father agreed and he made others in our family to agree on this.

Now the difficult part came, we have to make their family ready as well. My dad and mom visited their house and told them that they like Sheema and interested in marrying her with their son. Just after hearing this, her father got furious just because of my father’s reputation they didn’t say much but asked my parents to leave and forget about this. My dad was just like a pillar to me he applied all possible ways to make thing ok. He traded with her father and gifted him a car with some money as well and makes them ready. So after 8months battle finally the day has arrived when we are getting married. In this 8months Sheema has learnt the sign language as well so now we can communicate in a very well way. This 8months has developed our love more passionately.  On my marriage day I decided that I’ll never have any child of my own. So that Sheema’s will get undivided and unbiased attention from everyone.

After 15years
Today I feel so happy and satisfied my son don’t feel ashamed of my inability (dumb and deaf) he just feel so proud of me. I am the super hero for him. Sheema is best thing happen to me. Now She is the writer of many books. In one book she had mentioned the reason why she said yes to me in one hour meeting and the reason was “In that one hour I can see the father of my child in Ram. How he understood every single thing that my 3months son was conveying which only mother understands. Then only I got to know that he has some special gift though which he can understand everything and he will understand every single thing that I or my son expects or want in our life. I don’t think I will ever get such understanding husband, now my son will have the love of two Mother(Me & Ram) and one Father(Ram) Happy family” 

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